I have to get back there.
Right now the only thing holding me back is finances. Being unemployed will do that to you, though. I’m really torn between wanting to fill my time doing things around the house that need done and just going out and getting a job.
It feels like there aren’t enough hours in the day. (Are there ever?)
It wouldn’t be terrible if I could get myself into a routine that would result in a clean me, a clean house and lots of walks with Magda. But my inner lazy ass has taken over my sleep schedule and I’ve been clocking 10 hours of sleep a night. The plus side is when I get up, I don’t feel the urge to nap whatsoever the rest of the day & I usually get productive right away. The down side is, I still feel like I’ve lost 2 hours that everyone else got to make use of.
I’m getting side tracked.
While I greatly enjoy the walks with Magda (even with the mosquitoes chasing us) I still miss lifting. One remedy that might manifest would be training my friend Christie. I offered my services to her in trade for paying my membership for the summer while she’s in town. No, I’m not certified, but I’d like to think I’m pretty damn educated & fairly motivated. I won’t be heartbroken if she decides to go with a CPT, but Brandon and I will have to decide where the money for a gym membership for me will come from. (At least until January, if we’re still here… then his work offers seriously discounted memberships at any local gym.)
I feel like I’ve been whining about this for a while, and there really isn’t much excuse for how out of sync my life feels to ‘real’ life. I have been pretty stagnant for the past couple weeks trying to decide between going to get a job that is something I’m passionate about or something that is just a ‘job’. Compiled with Brandon’s current job situation, and the idea of having a baby, well… I’m hardly sure how to put myself out there.
“Hi, my name is Rachael and I am probably only available to you for a short period of time…” Something tells me that’s just not going to cut it.
I’ve got to figure out what I’m going to get serious about and just do it. Hopefully that’s not easier said than done.


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